2. My self-esteem fluctuates a lot. Sometimes I feel gorgeous and other times I feel like I am so unattractive. I don’t like how I look without makeup or without straightening my hair. Usually I feel like Okay but I don’t like my nose.

3. I have a hard time saying NO to people. I have started to work on it and saying no to boys I don’t want to go on dates with. Four hours after I changed my relationship status on Sunday the RA from the boys dorm asked me out again. “How single is single?” I said no. Before that I just have this strange urge to always say yes like I was going to find something better.

4. I haven’t done any homework yet this semester. I procrastinated and didn’t read the syllabus and I missed reading assignments in three of my classes. I’ve been done with classes all afternoon and I’ve spent it on FACEBOOK (girl bye Im addicted too) and wishing Kevan would call. Oh and we went to DI. I bought two picture frames and a $4 table for our kitchen. It’s name is SAM

5. I suck at tests. I didn’t do very well on my SATs or ACT. Most of my roommates got academic scholarships. I get really bad grades and I try so hard. I feel really dumb sometimes. I totally follow what the teacher says in class and I study like crazy and I still can’t seem to make a good grade. I havent done well on more than 5 tests in college.

Im a picky eater too.

2. I.AM.ADDICTED.TO.FACEBOOK. It is my release while at work. If I make a difficult phone call, am stressed about something, or come back from a meeting I’ll check it. If I’m bored, I’ll check. If I’m thirsty, I’ll check. I think you get the point. It helps me not go crazy, but makes me even more so. Does that manke sense?

3. I NEED my sleep. This just developed during my last year of college. I love going to bed early. Sometimes I’ll come home from work and go straight to bed for 2 hours and then go back to bed around 10:30. I can sleep anywhere, doing most anything. Riding in a noisy car, watching a movie, while Russel’s trying to talk to me, etc.

4. We have a two bedroom apartment yet the second bedroom might as well be called the Junk Room. It is full of JUNK. Fish tank, desk, lovesac, movies, books, scrapbooking stuff, christmas presents, luggage, the list goes on. I HATE this, but Russel doesn’t even want to start organzing until we pick up the entertainment center which has been at our old place since the 4th of Decemeber (when we moved out). Good thing we have all the time in the world to get it. Hopefully it’ll happen this weekend.

5. I’m a very picky shopper, most of the time. Then I get desparate because I haven’t found anything I like and I really need the item (say a pair of shoes). When this happens I get something I kinda like, then I usually fall in love with it later. I need new black shoes. I’ve needed them since around October and still have yet to get them. I’ve looked everywhere but I can’t find a pair I like. I’m sure I’ll break down soon and get some though.

oh and by the way, I am not updating my journal (read number 1). I DO WHAT I WANT!!!!!